He ended up asking me to have sex but I was to naive and felt pressured to say yes because of the moment we were in. I asked him to pray with me about not allowing that to happen again.
So I ended up sad, regretful and angr angry for my mistake. He did agree that he would not ask me to have sex again.
But know that if you’ve had sex, you aren’t unforgivable.But honestly, the main lesson I’ve learnt is a difficult one: it’s frustrating and easy to pretend it’s not true, but God’s way is the best way, like it or not. There is good reason for this instruction, but I remember in my youth groups and with my Christian girl friends we would find so many excuses to ignore it, because we liked guys that weren’t Christian and wanted to justify ourselves!It’s so easy to do, but I have dated a few non-Christian guys and in my opinion, it’s not worth it.He asked if I was a virgin and I told him yes and that I wanted to remain abstinent until propsal/marriage.Well I put myself in a bad situation with him (we agreed to sleep in the same bed without having sex).If you trust in Him and listen to what he says about relationships, He will work for your good.Dating is complicated, tricky, testing and can be a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. Doing it right is flipping hard and requires some serious dedication.This time it caught me off guard and I found myself again disrespecting my values.This time I told him I think we needed some time apart to think about our sexual sin but he got angry at me and immediately dumped me only to date another woman right after or before dumping me.Ella is currently a student at Cardiff University in Wales studying English Literature and Religious Studies. I contracted a STD virus from my second marriage which kept me from getting sexually involved with guys I was dating.She grew up on the south coast of England with 3 younger siblings and loves reading, singing and chocolate brownies. However now I met an amazing, but non Christian gentleman who respects my boundaries about touching and sex. He loves me and respects my wishes but is confused.